February.

I have abandoned my old blog.

I'm not even sure why I created a new one when I don't even post that much anymore--- from Twitter (except in my secret stan account, I'm always posting there) to Facebook and even in my favorite, Instagram.

I don't know. I think I just needed something. Not sure what that "something" is.
Or maybe I do?
As always, I act on a whim.

Lately, I feel like I've been hitting a wall in my life. I don't know what I'm doing, why I'm doing it, where I'm going... everything just feels so off.
And far.
It also feels like someone has blown the candle inside a dark room.
I can't find my way out. I can't get over the wall.

I think I'm having another wave of quarter-life crisis.

I'll let you in on something.
I hope I don't jinx this. But I hope I get to travel somewhere when classes are done by June. I want to see the world. I want to see so much of it. I want to experience something. I pray that the universe will work with me on this--- because at this point, it's all up to the Big Guy up there.

I'd like to think of this as a "healing trip." I want to prepare myself for another year in medical school which I know will need every ounce of me. But right now, I don't have every ounce of me because I don't feel like I'm "me."