Aquarius.

I went to bed early last night with the hope of waking up early enough to cram an entire school year's worth of knowledge--- all before the 2pm exam. My body clock woke me up at 11:30pm-ish. Fully aware that my brain supposedly performs at its optimum when it's 12mn and beyond, I went back to sleep to "kill time" before 12. Pffttt... "kill time", I amuse myself sometimes. I had a dream that I didn't have an exam to take the next day. The next time I opened my eyes... wait, is that the sun?! I checked the time and to my horror, it was already 5 freaking am. Long story short, I basically just gave up and resorted to skimming through my notes then proceeded to pass the time by getting sucked into an unproductive internet black hole a few hours before the exam. But the Lord is indeed good and I am such an undeserving mortal... When I arrived in school, I found out I was one of the 28 (?) students who were exempted from taking the final e

Doing the usual distracting myself instead of studying for my final exam, I came across a post on Instagram which felt like getting slapped on the face out of nowhere. "If you were ready, God would have given it to you already." Or something like that.  I immediately pressed home after reading.  Pretty sure it was God talking to me.  See, I have been "avoiding" God lately. Crazy, I know.  I am so frustrated with my faith in Him that I just went cold turkey.  It was because things weren't turning out the way that I had hoped.  But after reading that, it hurts so much to think about it.  It hurts because I know that it's true.  I keep on forgetting so many unwritten rules in life because  I'm way inside my head that I couldn't get out.  All I ever think about is how things should be in my own terms. Not thinking that my dreams need to align with God's will.  At this point, all I want is for God to heal me a