Aquarius.

Never would I have thought I would be THIS guilty of cutting class. Cutting class in medical school just brings guilt and shame. I hate myself so much right now. Why am I such an inefficient human being with poor decision-making skills?! I just missed both classes on Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery and Therapeutic Nuclear Medicine. Funny thing, I was really excited for the Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery topic. I am huge fan of this typa thing (Botched, The Swan--- Hollywood, in general lol) I know they're kinda different in terms of the intention and/or indication of the said surgery, but ughhh... I actually missed learning from two really great women. I will never forgive myself for this. I will take this to my grave. I am sorry, doc. :(((((

"Everybody is everywhere nowadays." This is taking me more time than I had expected. I'm not really sure what to say? Heck, I'm not even sure how I should (?) feel. This still feels like a dream. Maybe because we really don't even see each other as often as we'd like even though we're in the same city. It feels like one of those long periods of not seeing you because of med school and we usually see each other because of fate. Literally. No texts, no chats, no calls. Just us being at the right place, at the right time. It hasn't hit me yet that I won't be seeing this crazyface for a couple of years. We're so fond of writing letters for all the things we really can't say out loud... including all our petty fights back in grade school. Lol You kept on ranting about your excess baggage (damn all those canned goods!!! Haha) And I kept on thinking what to give as a "going away present" for you which won't a...

I suddenly feel so sad because I missed Seventeen's concert and The Saem fan sign. This. THIS. T. H. I. S. This . This is precisely the reason why I tried so hard to steer clear of the world of Kpop while being in med school. You see, fan girling in med school is like a double edged sword. Whenever I feel down or stressed because of school, I turn to Kpop for my dose of unadulterated happiness. I get sucked into this blackhole where it's just me and my favorite boys. I get back to the "real world" and it suddenly feels like my problems had melted away. Then here comes all these events--- but since the universe has other plans for me (aka "hates seeing me happy", lol) on the day of these events, I miss it. "This isn't supposed to matter." I keep on telling myself. (But it actually does.) I only wanted to know that cute guy's name. But here I am, a year later and a million videos after, writing this dumb post about missin...