I suddenly feel so sad because I missed Seventeen's concert and The Saem fan sign. This. THIS. T. H. I. S. This . This is precisely the reason why I tried so hard to steer clear of the world of Kpop while being in med school. You see, fan girling in med school is like a double edged sword. Whenever I feel down or stressed because of school, I turn to Kpop for my dose of unadulterated happiness. I get sucked into this blackhole where it's just me and my favorite boys. I get back to the "real world" and it suddenly feels like my problems had melted away. Then here comes all these events--- but since the universe has other plans for me (aka "hates seeing me happy", lol) on the day of these events, I miss it. "This isn't supposed to matter." I keep on telling myself. (But it actually does.) I only wanted to know that cute guy's name. But here I am, a year later and a million videos after, writing this dumb post about missin...
I went to bed early last night with the hope of waking up early enough to cram an entire school year's worth of knowledge--- all before the 2pm exam. My body clock woke me up at 11:30pm-ish. Fully aware that my brain supposedly performs at its optimum when it's 12mn and beyond, I went back to sleep to "kill time" before 12. Pffttt... "kill time", I amuse myself sometimes. I had a dream that I didn't have an exam to take the next day. The next time I opened my eyes... wait, is that the sun?! I checked the time and to my horror, it was already 5 freaking am. Long story short, I basically just gave up and resorted to skimming through my notes then proceeded to pass the time by getting sucked into an unproductive internet black hole a few hours before the exam. But the Lord is indeed good and I am such an undeserving mortal... When I arrived in school, I found out I was one of the 28 (?) students who were exempted from taking the final e...
Would you believe I was thisclose to booking that flight for the supposed "healing" trip? But the thing is, I only "booked" a ticket for myself. What held me back was my last ounce of sanity left for the day. Do I deserve that trip? Definitely not. I can't wait any longer... if I delay this for another few months I might self combust.
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